o how i loved once and found the cold reality of her abcents more than i was willing to bare alone. Needing to escape from a pain that was all to real. She was in my dreams and i found her in every crowd. I had no understanding of how to get her out of my head and off my mind. so i did what came naturle i indluged another romance. People from some time back knew i had a girl friend for sales if they ever needed company. Tom petty has wrote a great song deadicated to her. All the same, It is easer to get over one in the arms of another. Every room after sex as a smell that is better sweet. We are no different once i have exstinguesed our flame again. Her sweet aroma is lifted through the atomsphere. For a time nothing is on my mind, my thoughts and memories faded and for a time the scilents blankets me like a caring friend. the shadows grow firlimurly long and deep. as my eyes softly close to the hush and loliby of the space she once field. Now someone is standing in again still dimly faded casted like a shadow of my past. remembering that i have not yet hurt this one. She needn't know of my past the pure evil that resinated in me. She can learn if she listens to the whispers between my words. I have loved and lost and thought it better not to face the pain of watching someone leave again. My heart was cool my nerves half gone my conous num. I was settleing into the pale shades of my life. We are a distant crime that i can no longer  repent from.  I must carry the memories of we have done. I must relive glimpses of the harm when situations awake my shattered memories. Love was perfect before it begcome sick was all we needed before it died. It was the look in her eye the tones in her crying the pain that still speared her face still the moring after. It was the end of our time i had started a journey i was unwilling to divert from. A chose that will haunt me for years. My love is gone most of my heart with her. My emotions died and my eyes grew cold. The bright hues of her laughter now only wind i hear in the sping gust that sweep the wipping willows.  It reminds me of our first day in town. do i really what to live again basking in the delight of love or is it better sit in the shadows alone an know i am safe from the coast of losing some one again.