Distance

Writing this letter is probably a mistake,
I know you have moved on and you have a man,
So you probably don't care what I have to say,
But I just want to know one thing,

Before I ask you,
It's important for you to know that I still love you,
I have tried to move on and forget,
But I have found it impossible to let you go,

Every girl I have tried to replace you with,
Doesn't come close to measuring up in my heart,
To what you and I had,

I still cry when I think about what we once had,
I still open my phone,
And in the back of my mind,
Hope you have called,

I still dream about you at night,
And every now and then,
I walk to the place where I stood crying,
When you last drove away,

I guess I just wish,
To see you drive back,
To the place,
You never should have left,

Though I know I need to stick to my guns,
I know I need to let you go,
But I just can't stop missing you,

I would start to tell you the list,
Of things I miss about you,
But there aren't enough pages in this notebook,
To finish that list,

I know I should never send this letter,
Because I am scared of the response,
If I know you feel the same,
The fire for you in my heart will rage again,

If you don't love me anymore,
If you don't miss me and you are happy with him,
That may make it easier to move on,
That might set me free,

I don't know what repercussions will come about,
If I do decide to send this letter,
But what I do know is,
These are my feelings and I just need to know one thing,

Do you ever think of me anymore,
The way I think of you?

 laying alone in bed,
staring out at the rain,
thinking about you,
is driving me insane,
my mind can't stop wondering,
if you are doing the same,

are you as lonely as I am,
or do you have someone to hold,
how can I still love you,
after you treated me so cold,
I need to let you go,
that is what I am told,

my heart wont let you walk,
no matter how hard I try,
so much time has passed,
so why do I still cry,
your memory haunts me,
it seems it will til I die,

I am trying to forget you,
with all of my might,
but I still see your face,
in my dreams at night,
It almost seems hopeless,
like I'm in a losing fight,

So alone here I lie,
staring out at the rain,
avoiding falling asleep,
because my dreams only cause pain,
I need to forget you,
but in my heart you will always remain.